Today’s word: See
Every time I sit down to write this, I stop. My dance halts and I almost fall face first over myself. The phone rings or the dryer buzzes. The words stop or my mind wanders. But I want to dance so badly.
Do you have things in your life that you want, but don’t seem to push through? I wonder why I have this longing to write if I can’t see how to make it work. I don’t see where the dance is going to go and I always want to take the lead.
You can’t lead if you don’t know where you’re going.
You can’t lead if you can’t see.
And then it clicks. At least for a moment, until I forget again, until I try too hard in my own strength. I am not meant to lead this dance. I am meant to be ready. I am meant to know the music, to know the steps, to practice the steps so I’m ready. But I was never meant to lead this dance.
Sometimes I look back and the ink is a splattered mess on the page. But sometimes I see beauty. And that is when I see the difference between taking the lead and being led.
I don’t know how to give up control sometimes. I hope the more I see the beauty in being led, the more I long for letting go.
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