Today’s word: Ordinary
I have two butternut squash sitting on my counter. I love butternut squash. I keep looking at them longingly wondering what to do with them. And I do nothing. Why? Because no one else in my family likes butternut squash.
Surely, that’s not reason to do nothing with them. Right?
But to me it is. I have a big fear and it follows me around everywhere I go. This fear whispers in my ear with every thought that goes through my head. It tells me that I’m not enough. And I believe it.
I spend my life thinking I’m inadequate. I’m too ordinary, plain, and I’ll never measure up. In a world of ‘super’models, ‘super’stars, and ‘super’everything, I feel entirely…me.
Can my ordinary be enough in a world full of EXTRAordinary?
The truth is I’ll always seem less than someone else. When I compare myself to someone else (or a combination of someones that is even more impossible to attain) I’m trying to be something I was never meant to be.
If I’m so busy comparing myself to the super people out there, do I really have time to love them?
Comparison is just socially acceptable judgement. I was never meant to judge. I am designed to be loved and love others. If that is the purpose of my being, I should stop.
It’s not easy, so I breathe in deep and for one moment, I will tell myself that I am loved, adequate, special, and enough. And I exhale.
Wow! That was beautifully exhilarating to write!
Can I tell you one more thing today friend? In case you ever feel the same way I do, just remember:
Dance and breathe.